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June 30, 2005
The end of the beginning, Thurs., June 30, 2005, 5:15 AM
Yesterday I lost the person who in my life loved me the most. Today, in my journey within, I face a daunting task. There are no words to express the emotions I feel.
Two days ago I wrote an article in my blog that I entitled, Silver moon?". I cannot explain why I chose the metaphor. At that moment I was probably thinking of the shimmering moon-lit waters of Lake Ontario immediately in front of my home and that of my parents a hundred miles away, and my apprehension of a death to come.
Everything has a reason, even if we do not understand it at the time.
So yesterday, on my return home, I happened to google "silver moon" and "meaning" and retrieved this poem that was a forewarning of news I was to receive just minutes later. "If there's a meaning to it all, it doesn't matter anymore 'Cause it's the end of the beginning".
You were in the corner of my eye, and facing out into the wind
I heard the sound of your voice singing
If I, remembered where my head has been, I'd let you on the secret in
But it's the end of the beginning
Everyday together runs
It's all we need to hang our hearts, upon the silver moon
If there's a meaning to it all, it doesn't matter anymore
'Cause it's the end of the beginning
The end of the beginning
Oh, and in the calm before the storm, the sun is shining dark and warm
Behind your eyes my world is spinning
And every kiss melts into one
Once frozen love becomes a pool, how sweet the water runs
Like in the colors of a dream, we come together in between
'Cause it's the end of the beginning
It's the end of the beginning yeh
And everyday melts into one
It's all we need to hang our hearts, upon a silver moon
I could've lied to draw you in, but I'd be living down a sin
For the end of the beginning
'Cause it's the end of the beginning
End of the beginning
I will return, later, to explain.
P.S. I could not write at this point that it was my Mom who had passed away. I had a duty to first tell my Dad, who did not know, although for 14 hours my parents were just fifteen feet apart in adjoining rooms at the Lodge.
Posted by Posted by Bill Cara on June 30, 2005 05:17:05 AM | Category: Cara re: Cara
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Dear Bill,
Please accept my most sincere condolences.
Sincerel,
David
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June 30, 2005 9:12 AM [link]
Dear Bill,
Please accept my heartfelt condolences on your sad loss.
Lets lovingly remember all that your loved one did for you.
Your parents surely did something right by imbibing the qualities of humility and caring in you ( in addition to an acute financial and analytical mind )
Simultaneously, I wish there were more people like you who continued to love and support their parents during their old age.
Posted by: Sundeep at June 30, 2005 9:24 AM [link]
Bill,
You wrote that "Everything has a reason, even if we do not understand it at the time." Oh how true I have found that to be.
It is also so often true that there is good to be found even in the most trying circumstances. Having just lost someone similiarly important, I surely can empathize with you.
Many of us newer readers and likely many regular readers owe you much thanks indeed. You surely have stretched some minds and perspectives and horizons. And you have challenged us. And no doubt frustrated some immensely from time to time. And in doing all that, we are afforded opportunities to learn and to grow.
May our thoughts and our prayers be with you and yours.
Thanks and respects.
Will
Posted by: Will at June 30, 2005 10:09 AM [link]
Dear Mr. Cara,
Today I grieve for your loss and I hope that you have the strength for this difficult time.
I will say a prayer for your family member tonight.
Posted by: L. Pettine at June 30, 2005 10:42 AM [link]
Sorry for your loss Bill.
Posted by: MikeAdamson at
June 30, 2005 11:37 AM [link]
God bless you and your family.
Posted by: Fritz Buetow at July 1, 2005 2:21 PM [link]
Bill,
Sorry to read of your loss. Whatever grief you may feel is a small price to pay for the love that you gave and received. You are in my thoughts today.
Posted by: dunross at June 30, 2005 8:51 AM [link]