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May 10, 2005

Belief systems, Tues., May 10, 2005, 4:47 AM

I have been awake for quite a while. The last few days have been difficult ones in my personal life. My Dad told a brother yesterday that, "Bill has given up on his Mother", which I found shocking because my visit the day before was actually no visit at all.

My parents are in separate private rooms at their Lodge, within days of the end of their lives, and the reality is apparent to all, including nurses who were trying to console me.

But I could not stay more than a few minutes in each room because the experience was too upsetting. Then yesterday, a nurse called to say that maybe Dad suffered another stroke, as he remains barely responsive. Mom had been medicated for a bladder infection, which adds to the cancer that has reached a terminal phase, so she was barely able to communicate too. Like I said, it was no visit.

So, I was home in less than four hours, which took almost three and a half hours for the return trip, a beautiful day for a drive in the country.

As I drove that 401 highway, my mind wandered to belief systems we all have, whether they be feng shui, Warren Buffett, religious, or whatever. Mine has always been framed in natural law and the study of cause-and-effect.

So I started to wonder, how could anyone believe in the Random Walk theory, where capital market prices are chaotic? Whether we understand it, or not, is something else; there is a reason for everything in life.

Posted by Posted by Bill Cara on May 10, 2005 05:25:10 AM | Category: Cara re: Cara

Discourse

Bill:

In those moments when we seek hope, consolation and guidance, there is perhaps no better place to turn than to Thomas a Kempis' "The Imitation of Christ": "Forsake everything and you will find everything."

God bless you.

Posted by: Susan Szumski at May 10, 2005 6:15 AM [link]

Bill-
Blessings on you on this hard time in your personal life.
Best-
Mike Wilmot

Posted by: MIke Wilmot at May 10, 2005 11:45 AM [link]

Was twenty years when both passed away
He was first she only a short delay
Since they've gone I've learned from many
Others have experienced this same years' journey

My mom and I spoke each Sunday night
She giving advise me slowly seeing the light
Time has moved on but I still miss her so
Only in their passing did I really begin to grow

Now I see her and him in so many things each day
There must be a force that this truth does convey
With my kindest thoughts directed at you
I know some day you'll see this truth too

richard shawn

Posted by: richard shawn at May 10, 2005 9:54 PM [link]